Tuesday, May 06, 2008

my heart hurts...

i usually don't post personal stuff on my blog but i feel like i really need prayer right now, and for those of you out there who read my blog i thought this would be the best way to get prayer...
my heart is hurting right now. my 23 year old cousin took his own life yesterday. i am having a hard time wrapping my mind around what has happened and how he got to the place where he would choose this. my heart hurts for my beloved aunt and uncle who raised him and loved him unconditionally, who did anything and everything for him no matter what. my heart aches for their sadness and loss. my heart hurts because i loved him like a brother. a brother who makes stupid choices and whom you get mad at, but you still love him anyway because he is your family. he was the kid that you would see and even though you didn't like the choices he was making you just had to hug him and wrap your arms around him cause he made you smile and you loved him. my heart hurts for what could have been, but isn't going to be. my heart hurts just because i have experienced a loss. i will not ever see him again, i will not ever hug him again, i will not ever talk to him again. never again is hard concept to grasp. please pray for our family.

9 comments:

msullivan said...

Jenni, I'll keep praying for Sissy and the rest of your family. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.

Live, Play, and Read Together said...

Jenni,
Your mom emailed me. I am so sorry for your family - especially Sissy! She has been through too much. I just pray that she will find peace with all of this. I'm thinking of your family..... A smile I hope: I remember sitting on your moms blue couch and Jerry always inching closer and closer to me. I remember it like it was yesterday!
Erin

be_a_Mary said...

Thinking of you Jenni and your family and praying you feel the closeness of God during this time.

lfamily5 said...

Jenni- we are praying for you guys and your Aunt and Uncle. Thank you for sharing so openly! We love you!

kru clan said...

what a tragedy. i'm so sorry for your loss. i'll be praying for your family.

Anonymous said...

HI
LOVE SISSY

Dani said...

I will be praying for you. Love you!

Kim Tostada said...

Hey Jenni,
I had a good friend do the same thing a couple years ago .. I still hurt for that loss and random things come up that remind me about her.. I know that prayer is key to helping us through these times and I will be keeping you and the rest of the fam in prayer.

Lots of Love!

Kim Tostada said...

Hey Jenni,
I had a good friend do the same thing a couple years ago .. I still hurt for that loss and random things come up that remind me about her.. I know that prayer is key to helping us through these times and I will be keeping you and the rest of the fam in prayer.

Lots of Love!